i don't know what i want

well i know some things i want
-iap
-sleep
-to understand 5.12
-to just curl up in my bed with a book or a movie on my laptop and snuggle in the covers

but i don't know what i want
i want to not have to make hard choices, i want to know what my passion is, i want to know that my life is going somewhere.

i felt like i was forced to make a choice, so i chose. i don't think it was the wrong choice, but i didn't like having a sort of ultimatum, no matter how subtly it was put...but at least there was closure.

what's done is done.

i really need time to recharge in general, but i know i'm not going to get it until after finals.

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ahhhhhhhhh

why am i sick again =( good thing it's almost gone, i think

so i have a problem. it's called procrastination. and it's eating away at my precious sleep time!!! cry cry cry. but i get soooo easily distracted.

on an unrelated note, i feel so out of shape compared to how i was over the summer...i haven't worked out at all since freaking beginning of september. so i'm going to do that over iap but that's what i say for every break and then it doesn't happen. this time it will as i have summoned a new energy. also need to ask linden for openings at the psc. i want to work on campus but nothing where i really have to think like a urop.

i bought a shirt on shirt.woot. SO BAD. oh yeah my other problem is a lack of self-control. actually i think that encompasses procrastination. also it is the reason i have not worked out. anyway hopefully i won't be buying stuff off there all the time...but usually the stuff on there is not that appealing anyway.

i was doing suuuch a good job not buying stuff off the internet this semester...

i feel like i've changed a lot. i think when i stop thinking previous posts are lame (not previous to this one necessarily, but in general...i know what i mean) is when i've stopped changing so much

i should be doing my lab report.

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